Trouble in School

My school here used to be the one thing that kept me here. However, after I changed families and started doing more activities, I haven't really been enjoying school as much as I did earlier. My classmates haven't really been the most friendly to me, and it was starting to just get to the point where I don't really talk to my classmates very much because if I try to join a conversation they kind of push me out. I don't know if they are doing it on purpose, but sure feels that way. Anyways, today was a really good day and a really bad day. It was good because we were picking the King and Queen of the school dance that we're going to have (we pick one king and queen for each grade), and they all voted for me as queen! Which is super exciting!! I can't wait!

And it was bad because my Lit teacher told me to group up with two other girls for a presentation that we had to do today. Usually I don't do anything in class, so my group was kind of like "she has to do something?". So they gave me the material to study, and made it very clear that if I didn't study they would not pass. So I studied and studied, and tried to understand the text...I have no idea why, but it just didn't stick in my brain. I got to school this morning and I couldn't remember a thing about the subject, and I told my group that, and one of the girls (pilar) said "Ok, then we won't do the presentation, because we can't do it if some people know the material and others don't". I felt so bad! They weren't going to pass because I didn't know the material, which I didn't think was far at all. So the teacher comes in and asks us to come up, and Pilar went and talked to the teacher (she was always my classmate that helped me with everything, and was always nice to me), when she came back the other girl in the group (carolina) starts talking to her about how they should talk to the teacher and they should do the presentation and that it wasn't far that they weren't going to pass because I didn't study (I did study, but she was completely right, it wasn't far, and I almost went up to the teacher to explain what had happened so that they could still pass). Then another girl (someone who wasn't in the group) asks me if I had studied, and I tell her that I did, but that I don't know the material (I know, I know, your probably thinking that I didn't study too, it sounds ridiculous, but it's true) then Carolina says to the other girl, "no she didn't study", to which Pilar stares at her paper nodding her head. and I was just so...I don't know...I seriously wanted to cry. Then the other girl sees my face and says "Oh so you didn't understand then"...but the thing was that I had translated it and I did understand it when I was reading it, but it just didn't stick in my brain. Now, I feel absolutely horrible! I told them that I'm sorry, but I will never be a part of their group ever again, I will make sure that I never do another project with them(or with anyone) because I don't want that if I can't pull through for them they can still pass.

It was also bad because later I was hanging out with some other girls and we were about to leave and one girl asked the other girls if they wanted to go downtown and I was thinking that they met me too...I guess not because when they left I got stuck behind the younger students that were leaving (it's also a primary school too), and when I got out they were already around the corner walking towards downtown..I guess I wasn't envited...Okay.

So now I don't know what to do, because they elected me queen, but I originally wasn't going to go to the one at my school (There are ones for each high school). My friend had envited me to go with her and her class, and I was going to go because I know her and her friends and they are really nice, and I know I'll have a great time! But I feel like if I don't go to mine then my relationship with my classmates will be non existent. I just don't know if I'm going to enjoy myself, because I feel like I will probably get pushed out again so I will be by myself the whole time...I want to be with friends...if they don't want to be my friends then I don't really want to hang out with them. But I also don't want to tell them that I'm not going.

Well I'm sure I'll figure it out...At least there isn't any school tomorrow (it's a holiday...for people who teacher small children...there are so many holidays here that the U.S will probably never have..:/ )

Stephanie <3

Newbies :D

So, a week ago or so 7 new exchange students arrived from all over the world for this next year! There are 2 Italians, 3 Germans, 1 norweigan, and 1 from the U.S.! I've only talked with 3 of them on facebook, but I'm making plans to go downtown with some of them soon! I'm so happy that there are more exchange students here now, before, it was just me and a guy from Thailand. Which was fine and we are talking a lot more now, but I still want to meet everyone else and be friends with them all!

That's all I have to talk about with that now.

:D chauu

Stephanie <3

Superstars Competition

Wow, it has been a really long time since I've updated my blog! So many things have happened since my trip to the other provinces!

A few weeks ago my Superstars team (see posts below to now what Superstars is) had a competition. It was jazz, musical comedy, Contemporary and hip hop (4 numbers). I only danced in two of them due to consume problems (the contemporary piece and the musical comedy piece).

First off I would just like to say that I could have never prepared for what it was like.

Dressing room: Everything was chaotic. Some people danced 7 numbers, which means that they all had 7 costume changes. One number after the other, usually they only had one number in between each number...needless to say everyone was very stressed trying to change their costumes. There were people everywhere trying to change their costumes in time.

Costumes: I had two costumes. One of them was this orange and blue skirt that went all the way down to the floor and a blue and orange one sleeve bra top thing. We all had payed someone to make that outfit. So the day of the competition they hand me my skirt, but tell me that they were still working on my top. So I wait, and 15 minutes before we go on, I ask them about it and they tell me that they didn't have time to finish it, so I had to improvise and put on a black tank top instead. There were two others who had to do the same, and one girl who couldn't dance because they hadn't even finished her skirt. The second costume was a musical comedy number with a little bit of jazz. We had long sleeve blank shirts, and black pants with white gloves that were supposed to have lights in them so that we could turn them on for the finale. The people who were supposed to put the lights in the gloves told me that they didn't have enough time to do it...that isn't as big of a deal as the first costume was, but still I feel like I should just do everything myself next time.

So despite everything, we won the competition (which means I will be traveling to another province to compete again!) I was actually really surprised that we won for two reasons: 1) the costumes were a complete mess because everyone had something a little bit different. and 2) because even though the choreografy was great, nobody was in sinc with eachother, everyone was rushing about the stage trying to get to their spot (especially for the finale of the contemporary piece) and did I mention the costumes? Whenever we had this big pose, everyone would be running over each other trying to get to our spots. It was insane, we looked/sounded like a stampede...but I guess I'm the only one that thinks that because we won. WOOHOOOO!

That's all I have about that...I'm going to go right about everything that's been happening since then until now.

:D chauu

Stephanie <3